Well today is Saturday and I’m so depressed and I have cried all day because Ansley has left. Not because I will miss her but, because she has left me with the blog!! I’m not as funny as she is. I have laughed because when Ansley started this blog, I couldn’t believe it was the same Ansley that lived under my roof all those years. I never thought of Ansley as funny. But what I realized is that in high school, she really didn’t like us! We were strict and she did her own thing as many teenagers do. Then after she left home, we became the best of friends. I then realized she was really sweet and FUNNY!!
I had my 5th chemo Monday. It is different from the “Red Devil”. The chemo is not as harsh as the others, but it does have side effects. They told me that it would make your bones ache. Thursday I started to feel the aches and tried to explain how it felt. It is like I was in a horrible car wreck with the window shield cracked and gong all in me. I broke all my bones and I am left on the side of the road, and no one has picked me up!!!! Don’t feel sorry for me because I am fine now. Once I experienced this, I started taking three Advil every 4 hours and then if it gets real bad I take a pain pill. I have not since experienced the wreck again. I stayed ahead of the pain and it is under control. The nurse said it will leave me in a couple of days and it already has. Thank you so much for all your prayers, they are working. I have only three more chemos left, praise the Lord!
Saturday, it rained all day in Ellijay. I love this because Vincent and myself have gotten things done in the cabin. We have had a fire and caught up on e-mails and thank you notes. Lately, I feel my theme has been to ”wait”. I don’t know what the future holds with my treatments. I trust in the Lord and know he will see my way, but I am impatient about what the Doctors are going to tell me. And all I can hear is “wait”. That is hard for me because I want God to tell me everything. I always go back when God gave me the book of “Job”. In all his trials he went through, that is what encouraged me. To hold on and wait for God. I am always learning and that is good. I heard this the other day “You can wait expectantly, in hopeful trust”. Isaiah:30-18 “Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!
Love you all, Lisa
March 14, 2010 at 6:46 pm |
Your blog is just fine, Lisa. Almost anyone who has reared a teenager has experienced what you described when you try to lay down “guidelines” for a teenager! And as you explained your bone pain so graphically, I better understood the pain my husband tried to describe after certain chemos! Glad you had a productive weekend. Annelly
March 14, 2010 at 8:20 pm |
Lisa Dear:
We are thinking of you, love you, and pray for you always and the bravest of the bravest.
We are so sad that Ansley is leaving, she is such a dear.
We love hearing from you.
Love Ya
Roberta & Kenny
March 15, 2010 at 3:40 am |
Lisa, What a great post!!! You’re a wonderful editor of Pinky!!! Your positive attitude in the midst of all of this is so inspiring. Your spirit amazes me! Thanks so much for sharing your walk with the Lord with all of us via Pinky. We love you!!!
March 15, 2010 at 12:50 pm |
Lisa-
I have been following your journey and have felt like I am talking to you every time I read your blog. Your fight with this cancer has been such an inspiration to me and reading about your faith has been so moving. I have always loved your insight into everything–I think your writing of the blog will be fabulous–you have coined many great sayings that my family uses to this day–Homesicky–is still one of our favorites!
I will continue to look forward to your updates and pray for your brave fight–my money and faith is on you!
I love you tons and miss seeing you cute face–with this wonderful blog I feel like I get a big part of Lisa everyday and that makes me smile.
Love you tons-
Jane
March 16, 2010 at 12:12 am |
Dear Lovely Lisa,
As the old saying goes, ” The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree”, Ansley’s sweet disposition and kindness and humor are from you and Vincent. You have raised a beautiful family! Your writing skills are excellent and infused with meaningful scripture that keeps inspiring all of us. I am Praying for you with every sunrise and sunset and hope to see you soon! Love you so very much! May the Good Lord hold you in his gentle, loving hands and ease those moments of pain. ~S~