Posts Tagged ‘mental illness’
July 17, 2010
This has been an awesome journey, one that I would not have asked for but one I was blessed to walk. I have 4 more radiations left and looking back it has been 7 months of treatments and surgeries. I can’t believe I made it through. It was only through God using all of you and Himself walking hand and hand with me. God never let me look to far ahead. He was my helper day-to-day. I would awake everyday and we would talk and talk about what I expected out of the day. I told him I can do nothing without him. Just like the verse says, John 15:5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” I knew for the first time in my life that he was truly directing my path and I needed to stay in touch with him to know the next step as well as keeping my emotions in line with His. I have had some wonderful encounters with the Lord that one day I can’t wait to share. Those encounters encouraged me as well as strengthened my faith. God never left me in the dark, he always shined his brightest light on me. He let me know early on that I was going to be fine and after that I never questioned my mortality. I walked with such faith in knowing that he never breaks his promises and that he would see me through to the end. Isaiah 59: 1 ” Surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save, nor his ear too dull to hear.”
As I wind down this incredible journey, I wander how can I ever repay my sweet Lord. I will continue to keep my eyes and ears open to know where He wants me next. In his words he has always said that we are to go out and help those that are also in need. Only God knows what is next but, I will be waiting!
Have a great day – Love, Lisa
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June 16, 2010
Today as I layed on the table for radiation, I was so aware of the green and red light. I caught myself wanting to control the radiation that comes out, that I closed my eyes when the red light came on and just prayed for it to be over with. I have always been that way my entire life, until this year. When anything bad happened to me or my family I would get impatient and want it to hurry up and be over with. There have been times with my family when I wanted God to hurry up and deliver us from a situation. I wanted to go in and just fix it because I thought I knew what was best. But the more and more I drew closer to God, the more and more I saw that it was a process for me or my loved ones to be made. I knew God had healed me of the cancer but, he chose for me to still go through the whole process of the treatments. I see that if I hadn’t, I would have never had this wonderful bond with God and that I would not have been able relate to others that had to also go through.
This has shown me that I am not in control and that I have to wait on God for everything. It has helped me to be patient and believe God for the miracle he has for my son in his timing. That I don’t always know what God is up to when He seems so silent and things don’t change in my timing. I find myself leaning even harder in my faith that God will bring it to pass. Romans 8 : 25 ” But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.”
Have a great day – Love, Lisa
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June 14, 2010
Trumpas Church, Trumpas New Mexico
I finished a week of radiation and it was not bad at all!!! I am now situated in the needed position for my treatments. I feel very confident that the Lord is with the Tech & I everyday, which is a great feeling. It reminds me of the verse Proverbs 3:26 ” for the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared”. The verse is just wonderful.
I met a man in radiation that has throat cancer. He comes in everyday with a smile on his face and Friday we spoke. He will be finished with his treatment in the upcoming week. Strangely enough, I will miss him because he was the one in our group who always sat and quietly smiled without speaking. I oddly found a comfort in him. I told him I had a good male friend who also had throat cancer. He was so curious to hear how he was doing. I was excited to tell him he was doing great and had over come the cancer. You could just feel him light up with joy and the hope that he too would have that same out come. Aren’t we all like that, wanting to be able to hear a testimony that has a fabulous outcome. I see why Jesus talked about how important it was to tell our testimony to others, so we could build them up in faith. I have always loved the story about this young man. Luke 8: 35 -36 and 38 -39 - ” and the people went out to see what had happened. When they came to Jesus, they found the man from whom the demons had gone out, sitting at Jesus’ feet, dressed and in his right mind; and they were afraid. Those who had seen it told the people how the demon-possessed man had been cured. The man from whom the demons had gone out begged to go with him, but Jesus sent him away, saying, “Return home and tell how much God has done for you”. This confirms to me that God wants us to help others who are going through painful times by telling our testimonies. By doing this we can give them hope in their situation.
Have a great day – Love, Lisa
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June 10, 2010
Well I have had 3 radiations now. It is so strange with the machine going all around you, getting close up and then far way. I have to stay real still, with my arms above my head. As I lay there I pray for God to protect my body from the bad burns and the lasting effect that radiation can have. I find peace as I do this and keep my eye on the green and red light which tells when it begins and when it ends. Every other day they lay a second skin on my chest and then shoot the radiation. I was so excited because I thought it was to protect my skin. I was wrong because the second skin is used to heat the radiation up even more in your body to make it more effective.
As I sat and waited for my treatment, I looked around at all the people waiting their turn. The women were just like me “bald”, the men were not. I assumed the women had chemo to treat their breast cancer. I would have never believed a year ago that I would be in this group. Our group is a different group some smile, some talk nervously, some stare off and some seem sad. We women look like we were in a concentration camp, all with the same length of fuss on top. I think the same women receive radiation at this time everyday so I hope to get to know everyone. I will be a member of this group for the next seven weeks. And I told God today what an awesome group it is, it is special one I thought I would never be a member of.
1 Peter 4:8 -11 – ” Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God.” Have a great day – Lisa
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June 8, 2010
In this life we will have troubles and trials. John 16:33 “ I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart!!! I have overcome the world.” How beautiful I was thinking about that today as I was waiting for my first radiation. I can truly say I would not have been able to get through this cancer without knowing there is a wonderful God directing my path. I had God to lean on and trust because man has such limited resources, where God has infinite resources. I will never forget the day I let all my worries and fear go to God. When that happened that was the day I had complete confidence that he was in control and what a better person to be in control, instead of me. I try to stay in his words and hold on to his promises to help me remember that he is looking after me.
I hear everyday the suffering that others are going through and my heart aches for them. I just pray for all of us that we never lose sight of who created us and the love he has for us. That can be so healing.
Have a great day and don’t forget that wonderful verse – Love, Lisa
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